I don't think I slept a wink last night. 12 more hours of all I can eat, and then the fasting starts. I can't believe by 3:00 tomorrow, I will be out of surgery. My mom is coming down today, to help out this week. I'm really excited to see her, she is seriously the best. I still don't have a blender... perhaps someone in my church will hear about it today, and have sympathy for me, and volunteer to be my blender lender.
My stomach is in knots. I keep getting waves of excitement, but they are short lasted as the nerves quickly appear, and freak me right the heck out. I don't want to be nervous, but I totally am, and I can't seem to shake it. I know what I have been told to expect, but recovery is different for everyone, so I don't actually know what to expect. I think that has me scared. Not knowing how I will look, or if I will like it, also has me scared. Along with not being able to breath well through my nose. I suffer from really bad, year round allergies. The Dr. told me I was allergic to the planet and should be in a bubble. And it is true. I am allergic to the most random of things, along with every plant, weed, grass, tree, and animal. Except horses. So my nose is always stuffed and my throat is always itchy. I'm scared for the surgery itself. I know I have a great surgeon, but I think it's still normal to get scared before any surgery.
I'm just trying to be more excited than scared. It's kind of like the feeling you have before you go on a really big roller coaster. I love roller coasters. A lot. But any time I am in line to go on one, I get really excited, and then the closer I get to my turn, the more nervous I get. The good thing is, I always have a good time. So here's to a good time! Hopefully the recovery will go by quickly and I'll love the results :) I look forward to your comments, and I'll be posting a lot. I'm hoping it'll help to take my mind off of the silence that comes with recovery from jaw surgery. See you all again form the other side!