Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Thank you all so much

I don't know why I am still numb inside and outside of my mouth, and neither does my surgeon.
I don't know why I was bleeding too much, that he had to finish before he was done.
I don't know why I have so much tissue in my face, that I am still swollen.
I don't know why my nerves are not growing back.
I don't know why any of this is the way it is, but I know I can't keep comparing and waiting for it to get better.

There are so many people that have or are having jaw surgery. I know I am not a lone.
 For so long, I had no idea, and then I found you through blogs.
 Your blogs and sweet comments are what helped me, and what can help so many more people.
I hope mine can too. This is why I decided to keep blogging.
I hope by keeping this blog, I will be able to help those of you who are preparing or recovering, and that maybe you will be able to help me too. Email me or comment here on the blog, if you have any advice, or questions. I think it's good when having such a huge surgery, to have support. To be able to talk to other people who have a small understanding of what you are going through. 
Because it is hard.

I am just as happy with my face now, as I was before. I do not like it, but I didn't like my jaw before either, which was one reason why I got the surgery. The hard part now, is that it is so completely different. I would much rather have my jaw before, but look like the person I am used to. Now I look too strange to myself. And I am numb. But I am okay. God made me healthy and beautiful, just as he made each of you. This whole post surgery thing, just takes a lot of getting used to. And with each day, it get's a little easier.

So just remember to keep smiling, because a smile looks good on everyone..

This is a before and after picture. 
You can see the full cheek bones, and knobby chin. This is the result of tissue build up.
There are a lot of things I see in this picture, that I don't like.
To my eyes, I look so different..
Do any of you know how to get rid of hard, thick tissue, that is under your skin? I am really desperate. 

It's been a while..

It's been a while since I checked my blog.
It's been a while since I checked your blog.
It's been a while since I posted.
It's been a while since my last Doctors visit.
It's been awhile since my surgery.
It's been a while since my face wasn't numb.

I guess it's just been a while.

I must say, I was getting bummed when I would read other surgery blogs.
How can they move on and practically forget they even had jaw surgery?
How is it that they look better and I don't?
How come they aren't still swollen?
How come they don't have to have ANOTHER surgery to correct the problems from the first one?
How come they aren't numb anymore?

I had to stop. 

Every recovery is different.
Every surgeon works differently.
And Every person is different.